Archive for September, 2008

Alternative Self Portraits

September 30, 2008

These are mine. I am sick. That is all.


September 25, 2008
  1. I have started watching The Family. I could rant at length about it but i’ll limit it to – if you pamper your child and let them live at home for free until they are 19 when they arn’t in education etc then you are creating a monster!
  2. This 4ondemmand thingy i’ve downloaded is amazing! I found a documentary about a lady with 83 cats last night.
  3. I am also loving these buy and sell shops cropping up. Ours is called Entertainment Exchange. Like ebay but with no postage and waiting. Brill!
  4. You may remember that Shep and I have a slight duck obsession. Here is my god daughter demonstrating how cool the ducks are. I’d like to say this was staged but she goes straight for them on arrival at our house! (she was 1 on tuesday)

5. Shep has gone to Norway for a bit with work. I have been promised a troll. If anyone knows what other novelties are available in Norway please advise me so I can demmand them!

6. I bought Sex and The City, the movie for £8 in Tesco (even though i have ethical issues with that store) don’t waste pennies elsewhere.


September 23, 2008

I have had the email. I am going into my third year after all. There goes my year out.

I might be a little bit pleased.

This is a picture of Bart, my Build a Bear. The pic is for Lisa.

SGT’s scary dream

September 22, 2008

I have not had an update on whats going on at uni yet. I am so sick of waiting. In the mean time I shall tell you about my nightmare.

I wake up on an overland train somewhere in south london. I am wearing my velour tracksuit (which is for indoor wear only) and have my pink backpack with me. I do not know what I am doing there, where I am travelling from or what I have been doing in London. I look in the bag and there are normal things like phone and makeup and wallet but no bus ticket back to Plymouth. I start panicking but try and reassure myself that i at least know there is a bus back to Plymouth at 4pm and that i have enough money to buy a ticket.

I am frightened and try to phone people I know in London. Sal is away. I phone Special Opps and ask him if he is in London but he is very evasive and won’t help me. I am trying to tell him I don’t know where I am or how i got there and am very scared.

Special Ops tells me to get off the trian and he will fetch me. I get off but its just a station next to a park and theres just a shelter. I just wait and wait….

Food MeMe nicked from Lisa

September 19, 2008

1. How do you like your eggs?

Scrambled by Shep in the microwave with posh sausages and pepper and nothing else.

2. How do you take your coffee/tea?
Tea: strong with lots of milk.

Coffee: don’t like it.

3. Favorite breakfast food:

Crumpets with real butter and marmite but they have to go in the toaster twice and be borderline burnt.

4. Peanut butter:

mmm tasty.

5. What kind of dressing on your salad?

Ranch, blue cheese, italian, its all good i just don’t like any of the diet ones.


7. You’re feeling lazy. What do you make?

Can of pasta shapes with a hard boiled egg sliced on top and bread and butter. Don’t ask me why its a childhood thing.

8. You’re feeling really lazy. What kind of pizza do you order?

Wealways order vegtable supreme.

9. You feel like cooking. What do you make?

Lasagne from scratch, shepherds pie, roast chicken dinner, carrot and ginger soup – i love cooking.

10. Do any foods bring back good memories?

Blamange, peaches and cream all remind me of my nan. So does jelly but i hate jelly.

11. Do any foods bring back bad memories?
Actually i think all those demons have been exorcised finally.

12. Do any foods remind you of someone?

chinky take out – my girly mates in plym, spag bol – my uni girlfriends, dominoes – my leicester girltfriends- you get the idea.

13. Is there a food you refuse to eat?

Meat on the bone and peas.

14. What was your favorite food as a child?

Probaly anything that wasn’t served to me in my own house.

15. Is there a food that you hated as a child but now like?

Mushrooms, milk, bread, actually most things.

16. Is there a food that you liked as a child but now hate?


17. Favorite fruit and vegetable:

banana and brocoli

18. Favorite junk food:

bread sticks and tex mex dips

19. Favorite between meal snack:

I rarely snack

20. Do you have any weird food habits?

Not really. I won’t eat any kind of veg without butter or gravy though.

21. You’re on a diet. What food(s) do you fill up on?

I don’t go on diets but if i’m feeling unhealthy or chubby i eat alot of bananas instead of other stuff.

22. You’re off your diet. Now what would you like?

Thai food.

23. How spicy do you order Indian/Thai?

I like the cream sauces for indian but i like spicy thai

24. Can I get you a drink?

Strawberry martini with balsamic vinegar

25. Red or White Wine?

Red wine gives me a headache. I like rose really.

26. Favorite dessert?

The sticky toffee pudding i had in Mildreds back along.

27. The perfect nightcap?


And for my next trick….

September 19, 2008

My only task for today was to pop into one of the uni canteens and collect my god daughter from her mother so she can attend induction stuff. As if it could be that simple!?

Baby mother is crying her eyes out. Apparently baby father thought that today was a totally appropriate time to say that he didn’t want a party for god daughter’s 1st birthday because he cannot bear to be around baby mother and also that this was the prefect time to threaten court action and just generally tear her to pieces. On her first day back at uni. As if going back to uni as a single mother of two isn’t f**king well hard enough!!!!

Meanwhile I also bump into my old professor who doesn’t teach me anymore but well…who am i kidding al the staff in my faculty know me. Anyway he says ‘you’re a third year now, yes’ – and i explain failing one module and not progressing this year etc etc. He says ‘well you’d better contact Professor Somebody Else because the faculty are in the midst of changing regulations and allowing failed modules up to 20 credits (mine is only 10) to progress with a resit period in november. So i dutifully go home with the baby and emailed said person and he replies immediately that I should know in a day or so.


*probably also something to do with the recent media coverage of the huge social worker shortfall.

The more things change…..the more they stay the same…(or ‘circumstances choose for those who can’t decide’)

September 15, 2008

Is something Shep likes to say now and then and how true it is.

I passed my law exam. I passed it very well actually. I was frankly astonished.

However…..after not worrying about it but actually working really hard on my Social Problems essay I failed the paper. It’s the first essay I have ever failed, anywhere as far as I can remember. If i’d just dashed it off I suppose i’d be berrating myself about it now but I didn’t. Had I been able to submit it originally in May i’d have failed it, got the fb and sorted it out in August but that wasn’t an option for me. The end.

So…..I will be having my much desired year out. But I get lots of finance I didn’t know about so I will not be breaking my back working and getting into a state.

I’m really happy. I’ve dropped back a year so I will be with some much missed friends and for the first time in what feels like years I have some time to myself and for just well, living.

I may be old but i’m someone new, she said.

September 9, 2008


If i’m granted the self imposed (depending how you look at it), year off then the plan goes something like this….

  1. Support self by temping in the city. This is the easy part.
  2. Use the next 12 months to regain enough of my former self to be resiliant enough to complete my degree and complete it really well. (this is the part which is much more appealing than actually going back to school)
  3. Pay off my visa bill. It stands at £2,800 just now. I’ll make one of those totaliser things for it I think.

Without too much angsting I do feel as though I have lost alot of depth since I moved down here. Back when i was interesting i read the guradian and the observer every weekend, watched the films they recommended and had lengthy discussions about them. I took courses on directors/auteurs and genres. I’ve seen one alternative film at the cinema in the past 2 years. It was The Diving Bell and The Butterfly. I read masses and knew who’d won the Booker Prize. I went to art exhibitions both locally and in London and even all the way to Milton Keynes once just to see some Gilbert and George. I saw alot more bands than I have lately and went to the theatre quite often too.

I have let all of these things slide away into a cultural void. no wonder i get so bored/stressed.

Meanwhile my city college is offering a course called Write a Novel in a Year, every saturday from October to May (i think). If I can decide what i’d like to write a novel about i might sign up.

    Begin the Begin

    September 4, 2008

    This is a yet another summary post. After next week I will have some kind of life structure to diarise but until then….

    Since my last entry I have:

    • Finished with the weenies for another summer. How i love them and miss them when they leave. The highlight of this year was the brio megatrack spanning rhe playground. I have a pic but i’d probably get sued so i cant show you.
    • With a bit of help from Shep the property baron, ket my flat in Torquay finally to a little plasterer chap from Liverpool who offered me 2 months rent plus deposit in cash upfront which is alot of money!!
    • Made up with my friend after 6 months of squabbling. There were no answers in the end. Sometimes you have to give in and waggle the olive branch.
    • Which means i’ve had the nipper up here in the flat finally. She thinks the combination of my gym ball and Sheps posh suadette beanbags might just be the most fun that can be had by a 7 year old.
    • And that also I have seen my little God Daughter lately who talks and everything now. Some whole words but very seriously nattering and pointing most of the time.
    • Finally rented out Season 3 of Prison Break. Not got to the end yet however. Love it!!
    • Been to that London to visit Sal and go and see REM at Twickenham which was AMAZING and made me all riled up about politics for the first time in ages. Also it was just very special.
    • Started thinking much more postively about the possible enforced year out on the horizon. More on that soon.

    So what have you been doing???